The most common form of mating in mammals is polygyny. However, the issue arises when society evolves and with evolution comes availability to openly call for change. A majority of "Western women" and eastern women, respectively demand for one male mate with whom to spend their lives, and fully expect him to keep only her for his life. This is clearly a necessity she has the ability to demand; we are not in an evolutionary crisis, therefore our value as men goes down. However, with women gains come gains for men, and this leaves us all with a power-hungry controlled world with the beauty of evolution.
I take myself for example. I have been seeing this married woman for quite awhile. The sex is good, attention great, and attachment indescribably painful. I am a man who is at least half run by instinct through evolution. The most common way an animal with my biology has is to be with multiple women; not spending my entire nights with her. I may have logic in this point if it weren't for my loving the attention she gives me. I love sex and the narcissistic streak runs rapid through my veins, so reproductive need is conveniently seen as less useful.
I can get everything I want that satisfies all pleasure centers, but to do so must come at the cost of between 6 and 8 hours a day with her. Such a large margin of the day, it only seems fair I should get all I want, right? After all, I'm going against my instinctive nature.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Happiness
Throughout life, we all search for true happiness. Whether we're the artist picturing the perfect piece or the hopeless lover hoping to find their opposite, yet equally perfect partner. Even the philosophers argue over what contends as true happiness.
Weed, women, money, possessions, work, interests...all of these things we all stumble upon in our lives and have to make the crucial decision whether they may or may not be the root of our happiness, be it past, present, or the desired future.
Since 2007 I haven't been truly happy...bottom line. As far as money, I learned some lessons wasting my high school earnings and learned I can rely on no one, including family. Ever since my first love slipped through my arms through the dreaded inaction phase, my life has been hazy. A mix of weed, narcissism, and a Depression have spiraled me towards a wormhole. I've been acting for almost 3 years, showing people from North America to Europe to Africa how much I enjoy life and happy I am...nothing but lies. I am a psychologist, its my job (an excuse, mind you) to stay disconnected.
Complete disconnection is impossible. To fill the void of a warm body, I've been a user and abuser of many a female. Filling holes of married women, fragile women, and perhaps worst of all, manipulable women. All beautiful, 7/10 women had their beauty in looks, the others in some trait I have used and manipulated to my advantage. Alas, this is the past...I am writing this at such a late hour because the containment that lies within me is so great that I'm trying to procrastinate writing what confuses me so much.
Weed, women, money, possessions, work, interests...all of these things we all stumble upon in our lives and have to make the crucial decision whether they may or may not be the root of our happiness, be it past, present, or the desired future.
Since 2007 I haven't been truly happy...bottom line. As far as money, I learned some lessons wasting my high school earnings and learned I can rely on no one, including family. Ever since my first love slipped through my arms through the dreaded inaction phase, my life has been hazy. A mix of weed, narcissism, and a Depression have spiraled me towards a wormhole. I've been acting for almost 3 years, showing people from North America to Europe to Africa how much I enjoy life and happy I am...nothing but lies. I am a psychologist, its my job (an excuse, mind you) to stay disconnected.
Complete disconnection is impossible. To fill the void of a warm body, I've been a user and abuser of many a female. Filling holes of married women, fragile women, and perhaps worst of all, manipulable women. All beautiful, 7/10 women had their beauty in looks, the others in some trait I have used and manipulated to my advantage. Alas, this is the past...I am writing this at such a late hour because the containment that lies within me is so great that I'm trying to procrastinate writing what confuses me so much.
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