Butterfly Lovers Violin Concerto
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Egmjy8BbME&feature=related
This is not news to the human condition nor is it a personal revelation. Throughout life I have noticed intrinsic motivations for a passion sometimes turn a love into a career. A la meme temps, you see people every day whose love has become a career they detest. The necessity of balancing passion with necessity in life cannot be understated. Our passions are what drive our intrinsic engine to continue working towards the utterly impossible perfection. What we realize necessary for a life in a capitalistic world is what brings us down to Earth and forces us to focus and logically feel out certain options (wouldn't life be great if we could follow all our passions at a moment's notice?).
Right now the only intrinsic drive towards studying medicine and useless university classes is my motivation towards learning music and achieving a viola. I have all the means to learn from expert musicians (have already started) at little expense to me except for one issue...the money for buying a viola. As a university student coming from a lower-middle class background, expectations for me have already been met...but I feel importance must be placed on worldly knowledge, not just the "bar". On the one hand, I could spend a few hundred dollars on a poor viola that I would max out in a few months, tops. On the other I could achieve one that will last years (around $1,000), but I would be forced to obtain another part-time job while carrying 18 hours of credit on my back. Rent, electric, etc., moving out of the dorms reduced the needed loans but it also increased the amount of work necessary to maintain life independently.
Unless some unknown variable arrives, it looks like my musical plans will be on hold this fall. I don't want to make this a certainty at the moment, because one never knows what will change on an hourly basis, let alone months from now. I hope I will be able to achieve my viola and continue my passion because I honestly don't see how I can stay motivated any longer in university; its fun until you realize how much time and money you spend when 80% or more of the information you won't use in your career. If the education system is about "worldly education", why necessitate classes I've taken in high school while cutting money for arts and language programs that will truly broaden students' horizons on both a communicative and global level? Oh yeah...money (but that's a rant for another post).
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